I wasn’t planning to post this video, and the camera ended up pointing in the wrong direction anyhow. And it’s not exactly a cute sexy clip. But it’s extremely… real, I guess. Very raw.
You could definitely say that this was a challenging play session for everyone. And it’s one where the dom/sub elements are much more subdued than usual. This isn’t discipline, and it isn’t sexy fun. And it’s a scene where things don’t quite work out perfectly - but in a way that makes it interesting, and perhaps educational.
Snow was having a very rough start to her day, and when I asked her if she needed a good spanking she nodded. We started off with an otk session, made painful with occasional forays to the thighs. The video begins at a point where we take a break for a second and she expresses her frustration with not being able to cry. I comiserate, and proceed to lay it on harder to push her past the breaking point. When she does start crying, she cries so hard that she can’t breathe and safewords me - twice actually because I didn’t catch the first one.
I give her a little break, but I don’t want to lose momentum while the tears are still coming, and I spank her more gently for a while as she sobs into the bed. (Note: I can take this sort of calculated risk because me and Snow have a lot of history, experience, and trust - normally I would never resume a scene without a conversation).
Sometimes taking a spanking into that territory is very difficult, and at times even impossible. Being able to release completely and cry feels amazing, but getting there is easier sometimes and harder at others. Snow had a cry and left a puddle on the bed - but she didn’t get it all out.
So after this video there was a long hard strapping and a caning, and even though that didn’t result in the sort of crying she was looking for either (“that strap hurts too much to cry, it’s scorching”), it was intense enough that Snow has been happy and cheery ever since. We went and threw the frisbee in the park.
Sometimes we have to be happy with half-victories <3.
I’m starting to feel like Walter White because I’m always in my undies during these things, sigh.
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